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How I Learned To Touch Again After Trauma

I thought I had to choose between being a survivor and being sensual.

Titeänyä Rodríguez

Oct 17, 2025

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A Transmasc’s Guide to Developing a Healthier Masculine Sexuality

There are some lessons we don’t have to learn the hard way when people have already done the work to teach us.

Dev Ramsawakh —

Mar 2, 2023

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The System Operates As Designed

Burnout is not simple tiredness. It is malaise and unexplained pain. It is a theft of spirit and the creative body.

Tamara Jerée —

Feb 27, 2023

on a desk sits a beaded jewelry box, a black clutch purse, a gray ring tray with assorted rings on it, a polaroid of Kayla Kumari Upadhyaya and Kristen Arnett on new year's 2023, and a very cool rock, bisected in the middle and sparkly on the inside

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I’m a Cool Rock Lesbian

By which I mean I am a lesbian who likes to look at and hold cool rocks — not that I am a lesbian into cool rock ‘n roll, but…

Kayla Kumari Upadhyaya —

Feb 19, 2023

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An Exorcism of Sorts

The haunted house persists in horror media for a reason.

Autumn Fourkiller —

Feb 17, 2023

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How I Gradually Found My Queer Community in Connecticut

There were a few months where my mother, who lives back in Bangladesh, stopped talking to me after stumbling across some essays I’d written about my queerness. This confusing and…

P —

Feb 17, 2023

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Three Songs for Three Heartbreaks

I was in love, then I wasn’t. One night, after a big fight. I got on my bike to make the short trek home and a song came to me.

danijanae —

Feb 15, 2023

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A collage of torn paper in neutral tones of grey, beige, brown, and black. There are creases, tears, warps and paste layers like posters worn down on a brick wall. Some parts of the papers are aging brown and peeling out of the canvas. There are spray paint gestures in orange and pink as well. On top of the paper detritus is a ruby red ceramic tile that has been shattered into shards and then reconstructed into a heart shape. Some ceramic shards are also scattered around the canvas. Laid diagonal in the bottom right corner is a clear plastic ballpoint pen with a black plastic cap.

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I Don’t Want To Write Beautiful Things

I am in the business of writing honestly, especially about the things that hurt — heartbreak, disappointment, shame, poverty.

Leah Johnson —

Feb 14, 2023

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The top of a concrete wall is visible against a gray sky. On top of the wall, there is looped barbed wire along with barbed wire that's running horizontally. On the left side of the wall, the number 15 is stenciled in white paint.

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I’m a Trans Woman in Prison, Where Being Myself Comes at a Cost

Lying on that rigid ol’ mattress, I realized: I’m transgender. Then one day without my permission, I found myself being me.

Traci Jackson —

Feb 3, 2023

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I’ve Been Into the Further and Back

In Insidious, both father and eldest son possess the ability to project their consciousness elsewhere. The father does not remember this. Is it a gift if you want to forget it ever existed?

Autumn Fourkiller

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Robin Wright as a Ruthless Monster-in-Law in ‘The Girlfriend’ Gave Me Flashbacks

Did this miniseries steal from my memories?

Nico —

Oct 10, 2025

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I Was Already Afraid of My Inbox. Then a Death Threat Came

The deadline for my compliance with the “blackmail” had already passed. It was supposed to be noon.

Nico —

Aug 13, 2025

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On Being a Masc Top From Rural Oklahoma

You’ve fucked every lesbian sorority girl in Oklahoma, someone tells me on an app. Well, I said. Probably not all of them, right?

Autumn Fourkiller —

Jul 23, 2025

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Andrea Gibson Kept Sincerity Alive

The loss of Andrea Gibson is not just one that rocks the poetry world, but the world at large.

Gabrielle Grace Hogan —

Jul 18, 2025

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How I Learned To Touch Again After Trauma

A Transmasc’s Guide to Developing a Healthier Masculine Sexuality

The System Operates As Designed

I’m a Cool Rock Lesbian

An Exorcism of Sorts

How I Gradually Found My Queer Community in Connecticut

Three Songs for Three Heartbreaks

I Don’t Want To Write Beautiful Things

I’m a Trans Woman in Prison, Where Being Myself Comes at a Cost

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Robin Wright as a Ruthless Monster-in-Law in ‘The Girlfriend’ Gave Me Flashbacks

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