Lost In (Work) Space

Ungraded student projects, ungraded student quizzes, library book, bowl, lighter, to-do list for the rest of the semester, planner, stationary, elmer’s school glue, cup for water, computer.

Photo of Emma dressed as a lego brick, bell heather from the moors, Queen of Swords doll, nightshade elixir, this year’s rowan sprigs, Asali talisman, computer/keyboard/mouse, diary and current books, pen-pot, coffee, tarot decks I’m working with this week, amethyst, my card of the day (Wheel of Fortune), client tarot reading in progress.

Fantasian, Oh Joy Sex Toy vol. 1–3, The History of Sexuality vol. 1–3, notebook, pen, tape recorder, vibrators (assorted), laptop (dying), Trader Joe’s French Vanilla cold brew, water, lamp.

2010 MacBook Pro that has served valiantly in my post-college years but really needs to be retired; extra pair of glasses that I usually wear to the gym but also make me look like off duty Rachel Maddow so sometimes I wear them while working; “Who run the world? Girls.” Hillary Clinton cross stitch; Jonathan Gold’s 100 Best Restaurants 2016 guide, featuring places that are all too expensive for me; diagram of the Five Stages of Accomplishment (Denial, Uncertainty, Resistance, Panic, Acceptance) that my mom framed for me when I graduated from 6th grade because anxiety is real and lifelong; fancy headphones from my a cappella days that now help me soundtrack my writing with Harry Potter ASMR videos; empty flower pot because I’m not to be trusted with plants; box of greeting cards.

Stack of papers/letters, tablet, cutting box, pen holder, prints, test tubes, tarot deck, stick that looks like a human torso, candle, Bitch mag.

Desk lamp, laptop, monthly planner, journal, pen, Everyone lavender + aloe lotion, Headmaster’s Office-scented candle, Aquaphor lip balm, Kindle Fire, Philips goLITE BLU Light Therapy lamp, Socks Bobbi the Cat.

Trusty MacBook, Gold Fibre project planner notebook, Nalgene of h2o from a Janelle Monae concert, nipple butter, earbuds, chapstick, a ton of pacifiers, exercise ball (doubles as “desk” “chair” when bouncing the baby), and a million other baby things.

Desk on campus. Textbooks, notebooks, MacBook, several drinks (caffeine and non), Ibuprofen, some trash.

Windowsill: Virgin Mary wall hanging, succulent, AHS: Coven vinyl pops, DC Comics Bombshells toys, Captain Marvel and She-Hulk, Judy Hopps and Assistant Mayor Bellwether, Batgirl, Wonder Woman, Squirrel Girl, BB-8, Rey, a bunch of dinosaurs. Window: Hillary sticker. Book stand: Witch altar (La Virgen statue, fossils, dried flowers, saint cards, shrine), comic books, tarot deck. Desk: La Virgen candles, laptop with Autostraddle and Kate Leth stickers, T-Rex desk helper, crystals, a bunch more dinosaurs, stretching cat pen, hand cream, bag of presents for friends.

Diet Coke, legal pad for phone notes, Kleenex, Himalayan salt lamp, Macbook, another monitor, hand sanitizer, notes to myself, notebooks, sunglasses.

Macbook Pro, note from a friend, lamp, creative vibe pen holder, fake flower arrangement, Garnet from Steven Universe figurine.

Clockwise from the bottom left corner: notebook and bank statements; office supplies and ailing succulent plant; hand cream and lip balm; bowl of pills and kleenex; pen stand that a group of my A-Camp campers had made for me; coasters; mug my friend Laurie made that says I DON’T FUCKING CARE IF YOU LIKE IT, containing pens; jar of pens and speedball roller, light-up heart that says LOVE from my person; more kleenex??; wrist braces; other notebook, crochet hook and A-Camp patch; mouse and mousepad; laptop and earbuds; wallet and book of poetry by Matthea Harvey called IF THE TABLOIDS ARE TRUE WHAT ARE YOU?

Two monitors, webcam, speakers, mic, Zoe Washburne, coasters, Xbox controller, mechanical keyboard, too many cords, usb adapter, beer, pen, mouse, mousepad, notebook, headset, race-car chair, cat hair, tons of junk in the background because my office is an actual closet.

Macbook pro, apple wireless keyboard, rain design mStand, lamp; small leather box which holds sunglasses, keys, wallet, small pocket books, pen; journal/planner/bullet journal & pen, water, small dish of vitamins/meds.

Pile of keyboards, Arturia Microbrute analog synthesizer, urn situation that used to be my grandma’s, sage, candle, cat, succulent I definitely did not buy in a panic because I just moved and my workspace isn’t really “decorated” yet, power cables, 1/4″ cables, guitar strings, Roland Cakewalk UA-25EX audio interface, headphones, tiny cauldron filled with guitar picks, pile of guitars.

Two tarot decks (Slow Holler and Wild Unknown) with books; journal; The Doulas and The Radical Doula Guide books; Head to Toe balm from TJs; an instant photo of me and Eli and one of me holding a This Is Just My Face sign at A-Camp; two rocks from a creek in Tennessee; the best water thermos; Macbook Pro; herbal tea and a copper strainer on a saucer; my grandmother’s “Don’t ask me… I just work here!” mug filled with highlighters, pencils, paintbrushes and scissors; framed watercolor that I don’t know where to hang; jar full of flowers, white binder full of Autostraddle business relating to freelancers, upcoming series, and A+ ideas; Passion Planner; pile of post-its and papers I’m digitizing; reading glasses and a pen.

Left to right: queer books and passion planner, “Don’t Forget to be Awesome” coffee mug, eyeglasses cleaning cloth, Macbook Pro, Oaxaca pen bag, Bose noise-cancelling headphones and journal

I’m currently in the process of moving things around in my house so everything is a bit of a mess right now. BUT, here goes. Desk: MacBook Pro, Bullet journal, LaCroix, post-it notes // Crooked shelf: portable charging station re-purposed as a vessel for zines and cards, “Be Happy Be Gay For Tomorrow is Another Day” situation my Mom sent me apropos of nothing, three candles, jar of pens, rose quartz, spell jar, tray for incoming mail/things that need attention. // Above desk: cover of an old copy of Ramona Quimby Age 8, postcard of Olivia Benson’s mother Jayne Mansfield, photo taken from Twin Peaks in San Francisco, “this is where the whiskey comes from” label Katie attached to a bottle of northern Michigan whiskey she gave me, a pic of Julia & Jenny performing at A-Camp that they turned into a greeting card for me, a signed page of Eileen Myles’ notebook excerpts that Rachel gave me, a postcard of the California Zephyr train, a super-old pic I found at an antique store of two ladies who seem like lesbians, a card from Claudia, a card from Crystal, a collage by Laneia, a photocopy of “Autoportrait” by Edouard Leve from Harper’s Magazine from Tara (ex-girlfriend), a Jim Harrison quote on a paper heart from Meg (boarding school friend), an A-Camp pigeon hole note from Courtney Kist, a You Do You sticker, a photo of my dad with my brother and me when we were young and happy, a black & white photo of my dad that my dad developed in the bathroom darkroom he set up, a card from Chelsey Petty, a unicorn postcard from Courtney Kist, a page from a ‘zine my friend Jake made that reminds me to “be nice / care about your friends more than anything.” Also a playing card. It’s an Ace of Hearts. In 2003, my then-boyfriend handed this to me in a bar in Toronto while saying something sweet about how I was their #1 forever, and then we broke up like three days later, so basically that playing card is a reminder to me that love is a lie and we all die alone. xoxoxoxo.